“I don’t think this is working anymore”

The wonderful words that most of us will hear at some point in our lives.  Not sure many get that followed up with “You’re a nice girl” and a pat to the head.

That was the beginning of the end for me and my ten year relationship. I won’t claim I’m fantastic, I am not. But I do think after ten years I deserve more.

I’m not asking for a parade with elephants and streamers.  Oh and tiny cats with hats who dip them as they pass (yes I’m losing focus, it’s a trait of mine), but more then a comment you would make to a pony before you shove a polo mint down its throat.

Do I want too much? Do I deserve more? Do I want more? These questions constantly rotate in my mind. Clawing away for a sense of resolution that may never come.

What do I want? I don’t think I actually know anymore.